Life In a Day - Realizations

Okay so a couple of hours ago something terrible happened. Well, I am not quite sure if it is terrible or just an occurance. After interviewing two very impressive characters this week on Skype and recording the interviews with Vodburner I went to create the videos only to discover that I was out of hard drive space. Thank you Vodburner for not warning that you average file size is larger than life. Yes, two 1 hour interviews took up more than half of my hard drive, that was 60 GB! I know, no onw should have less than 500 GB these days, but...

What surprized me was that I was more concerned with getting these interviews to the persons that I interviewed and my blog posts set for this month than completing my school work. I not being effective in any areas right now. I have not finished any blog posts. I'm behind in my class work, and I have not began to prepare for my trip in two days from now. Yes, everything is a mess, and strangely, I am okay with it. I've accepted that the class was designed for us to fail in week three. Vodburner is designed to take over hard drives and crash computers, and that I might possibly not care about completing my Master's degree as much as I did 12 months ago. I thought I could keep it together for the two months that I have left in the program but maybe not.

But, I am very proud to have taken part in the life in a day submissions. I felt that it was more important to get this submission in by the deadline than it was to get my reading discussion post in, which was uncharacteristically difficult.

A Close to Crazy Decision

So I've been giving away my services for a while now. Marketing consulting, English tutoring...and now I'm giving away investment training. Now, that I have started all of this I realize it was a near crazy decision because it is yet another excuse to procrastinate on my school work. Like right now for instance.

I dunno. I read somewhere that you are suppose to give in the direction that you want to go. I read that you are suppose to be generous because eventually it will be returned to you by those people or by others because it's a law that God created. But, at the moment, all I feel is pressure. And yet, I can't think of anything that seems more right to drop than the Master's degree program in TESOL.

Step back. Breathe.

I'm supposed to be making music,
not supposed to be making Ds.
Just kidd'n
I'm making As and Bs.
Don't make that second one plural,
'cause it's the one I gotta keep
as one B, one B.

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It's funny people looking at me.
Tell me I'm all sophisticated
I'm like please.
They call me professor, smart,
"Oh, you're educated."
Educated enough to know that it means
nothing next to the Gospel of the King.

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You see I'll be teaching English, but
music I've gotta teach, 'cause if you
block what flows from your soul you
life story will be weak.

Get up, rise up, it's time to shine.
I've been shining all along with my ability to rhyme.
But, now I've got a purpose to work this
the lyrics on a page
now I've I got a reason to keep timing
like Johnny Blaze.