Oh I Figured Out Why I Procrastinate

I was just talking with my mother about this; it might just be the same state of millions if not billions of other people. We have gone through a school system in which other people decide if we are good enough. They grade us. And then after we graduate and we pursue our dreams we no longer have that system to help us stay on course.

Besides that, I realized that I have a unhealthy, perhaps crazy attraction to things that I'm afraid of. The last few years I have designed my life around doing things that I'm terrified of doing. For example, cliff diving/jumping, rock climbing. And because I have become somewhat addicted to that rush of being in danger--rising to a challenge, etc.

So it is simply exhilarating for me to wait until I have precisely enough time left to do something and then to rise to the challenge of completing it before the deadline. This is why there is a market for life coaching; they keep you accountable, give you deadlines for things that you want to do and that you would never give yourself a deadline for.

For many years I have been trying to fabricate these circumstances. Little challenges for myself, but the problem has consistently been that my "accountability partners" have little interest in themselves or much less my dreams and so with that lack of commitment the relationship falls apart.

If only I had a big exam coming up on PPC. If only I had a teacher hanging over me while I struggle to finish another book. I have been waiting a long time to be able to do this. I started a spoof channel on Youtube about this, and now I know it is essential to do again. I need to get another coach because I'm terrified of not keeping my word.

Why Do I Procrastinate?

For the last three days I have sat at my computer to write my final papers only not to write them. Only to watch more Frank Kern trainings. To outline my papers and rewrite me "to do" list several times. I exercised, drank caffeinated beverages, asked my mother to bug me about it, even informed my teacher (earlier in the week) that I was having this lagging issue, and I still procrastinated.

The one day that I worked on my papers before they were do was last Wednesday, and that was after I sent my teacher an email telling her that I would be sending a rough draft of one paper and an outline for the other. I keep my word. It seems that deadlines are everything. Unreasonable deadlines are even better for me.

I wrote a book about this. Coach Aneirin's Guide to Living Your Winningest Life Ever! You can get a copy at: http://lifebeat.ning.com/ Ignore my horrid picture there. Procrastination is very irritating to me, but now I just have to figure out how to avoid procrastinating on setting deadlines...

Inspired at Sugar Bar NYC

Just got back from a ten day trip to New York, and I got to do many things. I'm sharing a little bit on Facebook, a little on YouTube, and a little here.

I wanted to blog about Andre Henry's concert at Sugar Bar in New York, New York because I was afraid to make the trip by myself. I wasn't scared of the city. I was scared of getting lost on the subway...again.

So this is me and Andre in the photo. A picture of triumph for me, a picture of "Are we going to get the shot right this time?" for him.

I had asked my friend Ralf to go with me. I asked my one of my cousins, and I was waiting that night for another cousin to show up at church to ask her to go with me. One of my aunts was suggesting that she could drive me, but really didn't want to.

Then I remember hitch-hiking to Sturgis in 2004. I remembered how everything just worked out. That situation was way more extreme and God brought me home, so I lollygagged a little and finally went to the subway. I had my Blackberry and the Google Maps app to guide me...until I made the mistake of pushing the back button. Ooops! No directions anymore.

I was distraught for a couple of minutes until I remembered that I could still read emails. I had saved Andre's email in my mailbox which happened to have the directions to Sugar Bar. The directions were kind of vague, but I remembered my cousin had showed me to how to read the subway map a couple of days prior. Lesson you've probably heard 1000 times: do what you're afraid of.

Here's some embarrassingly poor I took video of Andre performing:


Oh and don't forget to check Andre's best stuff out at: http://www.andrehenrymusic.com
If you live in NYC you're lucky, 'cause you can go to his shows.

The Mind - A Great Analogy

I know that I did not come up with this analogy, but I have been meditating on it lately, and I know that observing this saying will help so many people. The mind is like the rudder of a ship that steers the entire body in the way that you desire. Unfortunately it is an invisible rudder. There are many ways to reach it. Some people listen to tapes while they are sleeping. Some people listen to positive tapes everyday to keep a "positive mindset". I have started sharpening my mind with the Holy Scriptures. I had dismissed this idea a few years ago, but since it was suggested by a missionary friend of mine, I have heeded to the power of "renewing" the mind. The mind has a preset course, usually that course is to run your ship aground. The mind has a sin-consciousness. It is plagued by darkness, fear and lies. Outside of these three things is abundant life: light (illumination or clarity about life), faith (the ability to trust God above all), and truth (the opposite of much that you see, the invisible realm, the opposite of much that you've learned).

I have steered my rudder away from an unhealthy relationship that was going nowhere. It was not an abusive relationship. Quite the contrary, both of us were always very supportive of each other, but I came to realize that I was in love and my significant other was just loving the attention. It took all my strength and the help of God to walk away from that. I felt needed, worthwhile and important because of this relationship. But, in the end, the relationship was going nowhere. It was not going to end in marriage, and I needed to be free in order to welcome new relationships into my life. I spent four years feeding this addiction to sweet affectionate words.

So I have been reading Scriptures from two separate programs (if you can call them that.) One is called The Mind of Christ and the other is a few verses from Joseph Prince's Destined to Reign Devotional. After a few weeks in each, I was able to recognize my worth outside of this semi-loving relationship and walk away.

New Money Masters + Teaching English Grammar

The last five weeks have been the least fun weeks that I can remember since my final semester as an undergrad. No complaining. I keep reminding myself that some people "can't afford" to go to school so they don't get to complain about the teacher or the course load or the all-nighters. I love it. I consider myself very blessed to be able to complain that I don't like a particular brand of bottled water or that the air conditioner is set to low. These are things that are not in some people's lives so they don't get to complain about them.

They get to complain about dirty drinking water, lack of educational opportunities, and the lack of a breeze (because they don't have air conditioning). Oh, that just reminded me it's the official month of giving clean water to people for Charity Water www.charitywater.org. Very cool I donated last year and I plan to donate again this year at the end of the month.

Oh, I wanted to talk about New Money Masters. It's a program that Tony Robbins just started because he wanted to analyze how people that make a lot of money online think and because he wanted to learn the Internet Marketing Game. I signed up for the "free trial'' because the first person that he interviewed was (the evil genius behind most product launches) Frank Kern. So I really liked the material, but again, I am a little bit stuck. Yo necessito el capital de lanzamiento.

It's cool. I got other plans brewing since I went through this giant shift from trying to learn everything and do everything myself to just paying others to do it and actually getting it done:)

Finally Robert Allen Launches Cash in a Flash

Yay! There should be celebrations in the street over this book that been years in the making. Mark Victor Hansen and Robert Allen have probably been planning this since 2000.





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A small observation

I just noticed that my clothing tag was particularly itchy. I looked at it closely and noticed that that half of that little plastic thing that the stores use to affix the price to the shirt was still there...chaffing my back; it had been there for years.

Are there little ideas, things left undone, or habits that you have that are chaffing you? Tackle a few today. I feel much better that I have removed the offending itch-inducing piece of plastic.

I actually did a little bit of this last week. I was having trouble sleeping so I thought of all the things that I had not made a decision on. After I gave myself an answer to all these 'little' questions that had been chaffing at me, I went to sleep.

You might not even realize how much something is affecting you. Every time I have a headache, my first thought is if the little things that I've been ignoring have piled up and begun to physically affect me.

[On a separate note: pay attention, you can learn so much by being aware of what you are doing or of what's going on around you. It took me twenty-three years to learn that everything is connected and that every thing informs every thing.] A silly example would be I learned about African culture by looking at my hair.